Killing time 
Good ole fear based, selfcentered, egotistical me. Rejection pissses me off and acceptance freakes me out. Fear based procrastination eases into my thoughts and the ah fuckk it's take over my actions.
Not wanting to feel the feeling I get that come along with rejection or acceptance often causes me to not take action. Their for I rob myself of the oppertunity to understand and work through the very feelings that bring on the procrastination that stops the action that would help me grow.
I have no idea why I just wrote that. Or if it even makes sence.
But Im posting it anyway. 
