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forget suzette	I attempted to stop the migration to despair, and remorse	Lead	[-]
Posts: 18995 (07/03/09 07:09:15) Retro Space Cadet Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	You know, this gives me a sick feeling, like the feeling of the story of the cop that brought jeffery dalmer the naked screaming 14 year old latino kid back to him...to finish off....sorta puts a lump in my throat. .........and I hope I made an impact to stop events in motion. I work with this 23 year old guy...his life's in front of him. ......yesterday. he came up and asked me how much people charge for meth he wanted to make some.............to get some extra cash. I said .............well you charge them EVERYTHING they have, their soul, their mental health, their faimily...their very ESSANCE, of what makes them ....them.....pretty much.............everything they hold dear. ...material, or humane. IT WILL DESTROY EVERYTHING, IT TOUCHES. ...........................he said ..............I won't DO it!! ....I'll just sell it. I replied...just the top three...theres more, we just don't have time. 1) you'll be a rotton bastard.... .....people who do that, are seemingly cold, heartless and evil, rotting people to death, for a dollar. I've had dealers like that, and even when I was strung out...and so glad ...............to know them at the time........I still precieved, this feeling.. they are creepy....I still bought their dope.......but I always thought.... ......wow. 2) I PRESENTED meth to people i loved, AS the GREATEST thing i ever had....and thought it would make us all happy... ..............and watched them crumble, go insane, and some died.. .......their kids were neglected, their parents were broken hearted, spouses left...trusts broken....money and items stolen from loved ones. homes broken, dreams shattered....padded cells occupied...time served.. ......the ripple outward is incredible...... it's sorta like how hitting the world trade centers affected the entire country....and we did'nt have a clue how bad it was.... .....till it slowly started to filter out to other states.... it affected vegas, when I was there .........and I did'nt dream it would. ................I gave it to my friends, and family.....I did'nt know better.. so, I'm telling you now, so you DO know better. 2) you will try it.... ..........you do coke sometimes, drink booze and smoke reefer..... it will be too much of a temptation.... like i said...at first people are real happy on it ..then it turns on you....and expands on your character flaws you want to be like me? .............. and be labeled "loony tunes" and not feel like you fit in anywhere.. be accused of being on drugs....because of the damage my past drug use caused me? ......and struggle to spark passion for life. It ends with a shotgun and a paper bag my friend. ....if I told you, to watch out a truck was gonna hit you..... would you walk in the street anyway? ...... I dont wanna see you crippled, and in agony. and I'm ABSOLUTELY postive getting hit by a truck...would do that. I don't wanna see you crippled, and in agony... ....and I'm ABSOLUTELY postive METH....no matter what your role is with is.....cook, dealer or speed freak.........would do that. SO FAR....that is the out come EVERYTIME... .........I saw it over and over for 22 years....and it is a fact. I hope your life is happy, and .....you are blessed with peace love and freedom. I promise you, this not a prediction, or a guess.. I PROMISE YOU... I'll even back it with a guarentee. ..................if it does'nt fester into fresh hell ... and mentally, and physically, destroy you........the planet...your pets...the wildlife in your yard, your morals, the quality of your life .......and everything around you..prolly even me.......... I'll cut my little finger off of the hand I write with. ............that's how sure I am you should go to chemistry school instead. govt grants are money too. ..I got a friend your age....and he is doing that.....because he crawled out alive. and wanted to actually be present in his life.... .................and not kill the whole damn world. (spasemonkey) I was'nt as smart.... ...and i'm sure you hear my reviews.....I can feel people thinking.. " it's a damn shame, that girl is a mental case" .................pretty much how the world feels about ozzy and gary busey....LOL! God please? ..............help him to hear me. Last Edited By: forget suzette 07/03/09 07:12:32. Edited 1 time.
jokersgirl		#1	[-]
Posts: 130 (07/03/09 07:22:07) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	How sad, I bet everyone would like to be 23 again so they could not screw up this time around! Ya, I don't see how anyone who doesn't do it can bear to make and sell it. That'd take a cold heart. To know what you are doing and go ahead with it. He just don't know. Hopefully you have helped him!
rborges		#2	[-]
Posts: 1191 (07/03/09 07:54:16) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	If you said what you posted to him that is all you can do. He has to learn like we did or have the smarts to listen to what you said and sell his talents or something else...
wonderwoman		#3	[-]
Posts: 2028 (07/03/09 08:31:29) Member Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Suzie- I love you. Give him KCI - let him read here and see the aftermeth (pun intended) You are an angel. Did I tell you I love you...
danimal55		#4	[-]
Posts: 9301 (07/03/09 08:46:24) Forum Star Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Punky, Your message will resonate thru him forever...esp. if/when he's phuckingup. IMO you did all you could do, and way more than what most would, or could do. "1) you'll be a rotton bastard."(or is) aka predatory spineless weasal (every young mans ambition) We share a common admonition....almost verbatim in this silly 3rd grade level poem (I was 48) ..... can I put it here? TY The Cat in the Sack My name is meth and I've come to your town You know who I am, you've seen me around The Earth did'nt make me I'm a product of man (aka spineless weasal) Who'd like to make money….. however he can I'll tempt you, I'll seduce you, I'll arouse curiosity And the door will swing open to join this atrocity All that it takes is just one little sniff And you're well on your way…… to being a stiff I'll take the smile off your face and make sores in it's place I'll take all that's yours….. in trade for disgrace I'll make you so thin that you'll look like Twiggy You'll behave most strangely and act really wiggy Now come a little closer, be a part of my lie Let me fool you and trick you… 'til you just want to die Whatever you've got I will take as you rot You might think this is bull, I assure you it's not Your family, your friends, your Mom and your Dad They will all fade away…. to become those that you had You'll hate those you love and love what you hate But don't worry about that 'cause I'll be your date You'll do what you can to make your next deal Whatever it takes…. you'll lie cheat and steal The spouse, the house, the dog and the truck They will all have to go….. for with me you are stuck So tell me, I'm puzzled, I don't understand Why people like you put their heads in the sand? Don't you know that you're one of a kind? There's no one else out there like you I can find Why can't you be happy inside your own skin? Why do you change this creation you've been? Is the wonder and magic of life not enough That you'd give it all up for this nasty stuff? And don't forget all the hearts you will break If you choose to go out and make this mistake Now ask this question… just one last time "Do I want to be…. what I hear in this rhyme?" What do you think? have I yet said enough? Do you think you will turn and run from this stuff? OK! enough of this crazed psycho babble But tell me, I wonder…. do you still want to dabble? If you say yes you won't really be phat You'll be a loser like me…… Tha Cat in the Sack http://somechicksblog.com...meth-poem-cat-in-the-sack Last Edited By: danimal55 07/03/09 08:49:01. Edited 1 times.
Penel0pe		#5	[-]
Posts: 9229 (07/03/09 11:03:23) *Such A Supah Lady!* Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	*" it's a damn shame, that girl is a mental case"* You sound like a damn genius to me.
forget suzette		#6	[-]
Posts: 18998 (07/03/09 11:19:18) Retro Space Cadet Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	I wish I could pull you out from behind trees at the right times.... .....I guess you missed the "I'm a loony tune" ordeal... it's at my house...I'll bring it over for you pennie...these a-holes thought I was on drugs..or looney tunes... ...I happen to sprain my back..and passed the UA......so....looney tunes it is. but, they sell "ACME" products so they better step off before I toss a hole in front of em...LOL!
forget suzette		#7	[-]
Posts: 18999 (07/03/09 11:27:50) Retro Space Cadet Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	suzie Posted: June 07, 2009 11:23 pm This dude at work, told me, Imma loony tune....and I should refrain from talking, and especially being myself.....and be more like everyone else..... ......and because I'm so weird, he thinks I'm on drugs. "just a little constructive critisizm" ...he said. I told him that was the crueliest thing anyone has said to me for no reason... .....since high school! ............thanks for the memories! Since I quit doing drugs 4 years ago and I don't even smoke pot...THAT was offensive.....deeply, truely....congrats! I respect that, just because it got my heart rate up...and hearing it made me know...I will never say that kinda crap to anyone... ............A VERY BOLD statement, for someone who has NOTHING to back this up with......except my musical terret syndrome, and tail chaising. ...I could hook him up with some loony tune piss, in a cup and he can have it analyzed...and put it on the front door of target for all I care..... ..he said " why are you offended, if you quit???" ........Because it HURTS! .........and it was hard! ....and now you're telling me it was'nt necessary to quit, because i seem to be using... ever seen a real drug addict? ....how often do I go to the bathroom? not come in? ........come to work late? have major mood swings, or come in hung over or sick? ...get a straw and not use it for my soda? do your homework.... ........I don't fit the profile, the boss can always find me, where she put me or I would have been kicked out already... ............but, since we're trying tohelp each other out he should work on his shollow unacceptence of divirsity. should robin williams quit being ADHD for you too???? ....does he bother you? I told him that was a flat out, insult, and I see nothing constructive. .........but actually.......this is gonna be hard to grasp.... YOU are a loony tune. ......coming over here and telling me how you think I should be....lol! that's so far off the coarse of realistic, it's dicrediting to your integrity, in your judgement of me.... .................like I'll say OK! ....and stop being me...Like I CAN! PLEASE, STEAL MY IDENTITY! ....IT'S NOT AS EASY AS I MAKE IT LOOK TO BE A LOONY TUNE!! go tell sharks not to bite...or manson to stop looking so crazy... ........Should I strive to be YOU? .....another nutcase? because you think, you can change someone for the better like that? ................. ..treat me like you want me to be, and I will become that for you without trying...it's a natural fact....and all I can do about your request. YOU should refrain from speaking to people .......................and trying to steal their light! steppford stockers? ...not gonna happen. get another goal. ...................That was REALLY " constructive critisizm" I offer you...... it would be a good change! ....................and actually ..........doable and useable for YOU. The real TRUTH.... about your finger pointing, and name calling is... Whatever you don't like about me....... ..........is true about you. and whatever beauty you enjoy for other people...is also true. ...he flipped out. I said that hurts huh? ....it's just a fact.....look it up if you don't beleive me. I hate this gheywad town.... .......they might as well not dance like in "footloose" and kevin bacon, felt COMPELLED to dance all over it. my "colorful character" ....in a black and white town, sucks ......I hear I'm different all the time.....not even the bottom feeding feinds wanted me there..I should quit, "I'm different" ...I don't wanna be like them or him.. ..I just wanna see how rapidly control freaks can scram. I call the guy..."my twin" or control freak" now... ...he whispers to me about "the golden calf" and "free masons" ....and says I talk about bullshit...LOL! like "my cousin vinny" ..peshi said: "you stick out like a sore thumb" his girl replied.. ................."yeah, and YOU BLEND!"
forget suzette		#8	[-]
Posts: 19000 (07/03/09 11:33:56) Retro Space Cadet Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	HE ACUSED ME OF "BEING ON DRUGS" ......AND HAS ASKED ME FOR A LORATAB EVERYDAY SINCE I HURT MY BACK. I'm like... ...I don't do drugs! I would'nt give you any if I did...stop asking me! you gotta go to charm school...or dope etiquette classes! .....I will never have drugs for you....for as long as cats continue to have asses. fucktard looney tune!
Lisa		#9	[-]
Posts: 4009 (07/03/09 12:02:28) Moderator Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	I love you Suzie.
Penel0pe		#10	[-]
Posts: 9233 (07/03/09 12:39:48) *Such A Supah Lady!* Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Oh my dearest Suzette... I wish I had a dime for every time I've heard, "You're so ... strange... not strange... but you know, weird - but in a Good Way Weird, not a Bad Weird... no wait that didn't sound right... anyway..." Tell that dude that the worst fate you could ever imagine, ever, would to be ORDINARY, like him. Honestly, don't you find it really difficult to communicate with people who are ... "Normal..." or at least think they are? Screw that guy - he bores me just reading what he said to you. Tell him your friend in Cali said "Thanks for the Nap." ...and I'm always standing behind a tree, I live in the woods, C - Dumsptah. Cabin Livin... I almost got sprayed by a skunk the other night, even. It had a super cute face and cute feet(s.)
jokersgirl		#11	[-]
Posts: 131 (07/03/09 15:15:21) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Next time he asks for a pain pill give him a bottle of ex-lax pills, be like, "These are really, really strong. You are gonna be so MESSED UP. " And, it's the truth! Not really, but it'd be funny. I think. But I'm really warped and strange.
Penel0pe		#12	[-]
Posts: 9236 (07/03/09 17:04:25) *Such A Supah Lady!* Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	^ Warped and strange is good. You're in the right place, and in good company.
forget suzette		#13	[-]
Posts: 19002 (07/03/09 19:54:39) Retro Space Cadet Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Penel0pe wrote: Oh my dearest Suzette... Honestly, don't you find it really difficult to communicate with people who are ... "Normal..." or at least think they are? No I don't wanna be like these people... ......................THEY want ME to be like them. lol! ....THANKIES PENNIE.