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I have 'mind racing'. It's something I take meds for, although I'm not suggesting you do the same. For me, it's always been like this.

As far as the letting go thing, the best analogy I have comes from the movie 28 Days, with Sandra Bullock. She talking to a fellow addict who's also a pro-baseball pitcher and is practicing pitching. When he tries to teach her, he tells her not to think when she's throwing the ball. You can control how you hold the ball, your stance, your wind up and your release. Once you let go, you're part is over and what happens "out there" is beyond you, so there's no reason to think about it. I don't know if this makes sense to any of you, but to me, it's a perfect analogy.

Those of you who follow my blog may remember that I was fired two weeks ago from a job that I truly loved. The reasons they gave me were bullshit, and when I asked for proof, they told me they didn't have to justify anything to me. I was devastated and humiliated when they escorted me out of the building. I cried and did the "why me?" thing for about 4 hours. Then I let it go and concentrated on what I needed to do to make sure my son and I were okay. Now, when I say I let go, I don't mean it was a magical thing that happened. I still cried off and on for the following week, but I let go in the sense that there's nothing I can do and what's done is done. I did my best and what happened, happened.

As much as I hate cliches (and I really do HATE them) I believe deeply that things happen for a reason even though that reason is usually not immediately apparent. The reason is usually not even what you hope or think will happen. I believe that the energy I put out into the universe is the energy that comes back to me, and this has proved itself time and time again in my life. I guess I'm babbling here, but I just feel like I know what you're going through and I want to help you.


Another thing I believe in is the Law of Attraction. What you think about is what will manifest itself in your life - the positive AND the negative. The universe/God/whatever you believe in, doesn't care what you're thinking, only that you're thinking. So if your thoughts are: I'm confused, I don't know what to do, I don't know where I'm going, I can't, I don't, I won't... that's what will stay in your life. The trick is to stop all those thoughts and replace them with what you want. This wasn't easy for me by a long shot. In fact, at first I had to say out loud, "STOP" whenever negative thoughts would pop into my head, which was about 75 times per minute:), so I talked to myself A LOT in the beginning. But I would have these thoughts like, "I'm such a loser/addict, why me? I'm so fat, no one will ever love me. I'm weird and not like other people, I don't belong...yadda, yadda, yadda..." (A couple of posts on my blog that might help: Today is a good day, Today IS a good day)

Right, then. I'll stop now because I sound like a geek. (No I don't! I'm trying to help and if it helps, good. If they think I'm some new-age, hippy, weirdo chick, %$$* 'em. They don't have to read this) There's a book and DVD called The Secret. If you can get past the corny, Oprah-esk opening of the DVD, it gives a lot of information about the Law of Attraction.

Take care of yourself!

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