She slammed the door in the bathroom, and came out an hour later - full makeup, high heels - you know - looking ready to make money. I've seen this movie before.
Again the past few days she was callin rehab, telling me she had to change to save "us" - whatever, I heard her make the call, same old disinterest coming out of her mouth - lets just say she doesn't sound like she events wants to call them.
So she left with 2 suitcases - stupid me followed her an hour later and I always know where to find her. She was coming out of a dealers place - she already scrored her money and drugs - jeezus that girl can always get it when she needs it.
I confronted her - angry as hell. She stared at me with cold eyes and said "go away i'm not coming back". I told her I loved her and to look me up in a year if she has rehabbed herself. She just walked right past me and started dialing on her cell phone. I got back in the car and drove away.
Can you believe it? She texted me latre last night and said " did u go to sleep yet? Goodnite"....waht a crzay nutcase. I didn't reply...
I feel free today - the best I have felt in a year. I feel in my heart that this is it - I wasn't jealous of her yesterday - just angry...I kept saying to myself "this is it, you can be free of crazy girl"....
I wonder what she thinks...the fact she texted me after says she wants to keep the door open..... I have the strength now to keep it closed.
I think now is a great time to take a 2 week vacation out of the area.

