Hey all, I hope you all had a good weekend and Dad's, I hope you had a great fathers day!
I told ya'll about my daughter and how I haven't heard from her in a month...well, she came over to my dads yesterday for a cookout. She had the whole "attitude" thing going on. It was almost like she was baiting me---trying to get me to give her a reason to leave. Well I surprised myself by holding it together...well at least until she proceeded to tell everyone that her ex broke in and stoled her stuff because she was seeing one of his "friends". Come to find out this friend was the one that had been in jail arrested on 17 charges...8 of which are felonies. My God, it was like she was bragging about it. I asked her if she wasn't worried about getting in trouble since she is on probation....wrong thing to do! This gave her the perfect opportunity to inform me that "it didn't matter and was none of my business"....to which I tried to explain that I just didn't want her to have to go through anymore crap if it could be avoided. Well apparently she "doesn't care and neither should I...she's an adult and it's her life" She told me she couldn't wait to leave cause she could just go back home and not give me a second thought, and wouldn't" I knew it was going to get bad, so I told my dad I loved him and that I had to go ahead and leave(thank goodness he didn't hear all that stuff) As I was leaving Nikki came outside and walked up to me and said--(as if none of the other had happened)" I'll call you tomorrow mom, love you.".as she was trying to hug me.....totally blew my mind....inn shock, I looked at her and said, I love you..but right now, I don't like the person you have become...I can't do this with you anymore. She actually asked me what I was talking about. Now maybe I shouldn't have done this...but I took a step back before she could hug me and just turned and left.
My mom told me later I shouldn't have left without hugging her because I would never forgive myself if anything happened...............Apparently she went back in the house with the tears on talking about how I didn't love her..........I understand manipulation.....I know that's whats happening....but Lord help me...I think I am beginning to question myself. I don't know what to do..........I am so blasted confused. I came home and was physically ill. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and am finding myself wondering if I am going to be able to do this.. I am also having trouble finding AL-A-NON meetings here. Any suggestions....I have to do something........
I told ya'll about my daughter and how I haven't heard from her in a month...well, she came over to my dads yesterday for a cookout. She had the whole "attitude" thing going on. It was almost like she was baiting me---trying to get me to give her a reason to leave. Well I surprised myself by holding it together...well at least until she proceeded to tell everyone that her ex broke in and stoled her stuff because she was seeing one of his "friends". Come to find out this friend was the one that had been in jail arrested on 17 charges...8 of which are felonies. My God, it was like she was bragging about it. I asked her if she wasn't worried about getting in trouble since she is on probation....wrong thing to do! This gave her the perfect opportunity to inform me that "it didn't matter and was none of my business"....to which I tried to explain that I just didn't want her to have to go through anymore crap if it could be avoided. Well apparently she "doesn't care and neither should I...she's an adult and it's her life" She told me she couldn't wait to leave cause she could just go back home and not give me a second thought, and wouldn't" I knew it was going to get bad, so I told my dad I loved him and that I had to go ahead and leave(thank goodness he didn't hear all that stuff) As I was leaving Nikki came outside and walked up to me and said--(as if none of the other had happened)" I'll call you tomorrow mom, love you.".as she was trying to hug me.....totally blew my mind....inn shock, I looked at her and said, I love you..but right now, I don't like the person you have become...I can't do this with you anymore. She actually asked me what I was talking about. Now maybe I shouldn't have done this...but I took a step back before she could hug me and just turned and left.
My mom told me later I shouldn't have left without hugging her because I would never forgive myself if anything happened...............Apparently she went back in the house with the tears on talking about how I didn't love her..........I understand manipulation.....I know that's whats happening....but Lord help me...I think I am beginning to question myself. I don't know what to do..........I am so blasted confused. I came home and was physically ill. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and am finding myself wondering if I am going to be able to do this.. I am also having trouble finding AL-A-NON meetings here. Any suggestions....I have to do something........
