I have been having vision troubles for the past 3 years that have been really bad, my vision is really distorted and out-of-focus, and everything is kind of
cloudy and fuzzy. I can't see objects or anything in my visual field clearly, and the edges of the objects are hard to define. When I relax my eyes or set
my eyes upon something to stare at, it fades even more out of focus until everything in my visual field is blended into each other, and it seems my vision/eyes
is pushing my vision out of focus and its really distorted and scary. I have lost all abilities to study, ready, think or speak clearly, to work, to socialize,
to do anything really. I mainly just stay at my house and have bad anxiety attacks about my vision because it is so distorted and disorienting that it scares
me. It is exactly like drug vision, thats what I have described it as, it looks and feels like I have been doing drugs but I havent been. I have seen countless
opthamologists and optometrists, a few neurologists, and 2 neuropthamologists and none of them have been able to find anything wrong with my vision. It makes
me so disoriented and everything is so out of focus and cloudy and blurry that I find it hard to do anything and just feel out of it all day, every day for the
last 3 years. This was following a year of methamphetamine and amphetamine abuse, I was taking both in high doses in binges, and after my last methamphetamine
binge I developed this problem. I have told one opthamologist and 2 neurologists about how the problem started, but they disregarded it, but this problem is
really ruining my life. I really want to do well in school and get a good career going but this problem is preventing that from happening, and I just keep
obsessing over my drug use and what could have gone wrong but I can't figure out anything and it is way too severe for me to just live with. One
neurologist said at first it may be vasculitis, but now he doesn't think so but thats the closest thing I have had to diagnosis so I don't really know
what to do. I am halfway through college, and I just want to be normal and do good in school and stuff but I can't because of this vision problem. Also I
noticed my vision is kind of shaky and wavy, and my vision seems to shake/move wavily with my pulse pounding in my temples and I have felt light-headed and
disoriented since the problem began. I only have a little time till I decide which school to pick, and if I can fix this vision problem soon then I can go to
the best school but I can't function at all with this problem so I really need some help. If anyone has anything to contribute please do, I really need
help.
