I ask when they start because I asked my boyfriend who is also a recovering addict, when they started.. just had to prove a point to him that's all. I dont
have using dreams.. not yet.. I have really weird outrageous dreams. Like I had one the other night about all my nails falling off. Weird right? I'm 24
years old and I started using meth when I was 14. Every day of my life for the last 10 yrs. I smoked meth. Never used it any other way. And living in Arizona,
which some say is the meth capital of the world, is hard because every where I turn, there it is. I've had to eliminate 90% of my friends because I feel
like I cant stay sober without the support of them. I guess though if they were real friends, they wouldn't bring it around me at all right? Or is that
just me not being strong enough yet to walk away. ? I love the sober life so far, even though it's tough. I just cant give up. No way will I!! I'm
going to look into an addiction specialist. I don't have a job yet though. I'm going to start going to NA meetings thanks to all of your opinions!! I
feel like I belng here!! I wish all of you knew how much I appreciate all of you actually caring!!! I'm EXSTATIC about being here!!!
