I just saw my ex pot dealer at the gas station.
......He was busted, for selling pot...I quit WITH HIM.
I went to NA meetings with him, and got him a room where I live, so we were roomates.
...he knows I'm a meth addict.
He got tossed out, because, he kept getting drunk, and coming in late, and bouncing off jeanies door....knocking stuff over...ect.
....we lost touch afterwards for almost a year.
I just saw him at the gas station..
....he came up and hugged me, and gave me his new phone number, and some meth to try, if i wanted to buy any.
I was HOLDING some meth, and a phone number to get more.
.....Tears started pouring, and I gave the fuckinshit back to him, and the number...
I said
You KNOW better! ...YOUfuckinKNOW I'm a meth addict! ...you know I'm depressed, and suicidal.....and lost my life and everything I own to it!
............HOW COULD YOU??? .....HOW DARE YOU! ..... throw me away........JUST to make a few bucks?
I thought you were a good person, but, you are a preditor right now.....meth will kill me, I told you 1000 times........I told you what crap this does to you.
......AND I quit smoking pot with you, because I love your spirit.
I tried with all my heart to save you.....I sat thru NA meetings and I shared enough in those alone, for you to know good and well it screwed me up! (still crying)
....................light surround you, I wish you luck, you are gonna need it
I got in the van and just cried like a baby....
......because, I hate the grasp it has on me.
I love it so much, and I hate it so much...
.....I'm too perplexed to feel the joy of accomplishment.
It HUUURT me to turn it down.
...it hurts me MORE...that this kid knew what he was doing.
what bothers me MOST is...HE KNEW BETTER!!!
people who offer who don't know, are out there.
......and I won't have the OUTRAGE to block the addiction part.
I did it.
.....but it was'nt all because I'm strong now.
it's because, I like to think people are good inside.....
.....and it broke my heart, and gimped me up...that it was in my hand.
what an a-hole!!!
......He was busted, for selling pot...I quit WITH HIM.
I went to NA meetings with him, and got him a room where I live, so we were roomates.
...he knows I'm a meth addict.
He got tossed out, because, he kept getting drunk, and coming in late, and bouncing off jeanies door....knocking stuff over...ect.
....we lost touch afterwards for almost a year.
I just saw him at the gas station..
....he came up and hugged me, and gave me his new phone number, and some meth to try, if i wanted to buy any.
I was HOLDING some meth, and a phone number to get more.
.....Tears started pouring, and I gave the fuckinshit back to him, and the number...
I said
You KNOW better! ...YOUfuckinKNOW I'm a meth addict! ...you know I'm depressed, and suicidal.....and lost my life and everything I own to it!
............HOW COULD YOU??? .....HOW DARE YOU! ..... throw me away........JUST to make a few bucks?
I thought you were a good person, but, you are a preditor right now.....meth will kill me, I told you 1000 times........I told you what crap this does to you.
......AND I quit smoking pot with you, because I love your spirit.
I tried with all my heart to save you.....I sat thru NA meetings and I shared enough in those alone, for you to know good and well it screwed me up! (still crying)
....................light surround you, I wish you luck, you are gonna need it
I got in the van and just cried like a baby....
......because, I hate the grasp it has on me.
I love it so much, and I hate it so much...
.....I'm too perplexed to feel the joy of accomplishment.
It HUUURT me to turn it down.
...it hurts me MORE...that this kid knew what he was doing.
what bothers me MOST is...HE KNEW BETTER!!!
people who offer who don't know, are out there.
......and I won't have the OUTRAGE to block the addiction part.
I did it.
.....but it was'nt all because I'm strong now.
it's because, I like to think people are good inside.....
.....and it broke my heart, and gimped me up...that it was in my hand.
what an a-hole!!!
