You all told me things i didn't really what to hear but its all true. No matter how much I tryed to find a excuse to pin point her actions on something
or someone, I have finally come to relies it as much as my x girl fiends fault as it is the girl across the street and them old so called friends because if
she was truely done with meth and really don't want it in her life again she would have never done it. she done it because she wanted to Bottom line
because you will have to fight it off and say no, no matter who it is the rest of your life when you are confronted with it. I can't stand over her the
rest of my life just to try to make sure she does right because i feel i can't trust her to say no. I have realised it is all up to her there is nothing i
can do its her body, her mind, and her will that has to say no i had enough.
I went and had a STD test done yesterday because i know she didn't have any money to buy it, god knows what she was doing to get. wish me luck that I am
still STD free.
