Where to begin, that's funny I came to this board so long ago looking for answers, I've learned so much, but and that's a Big But!!!
I'm still a Co-dependent, so I try to help out others and I sit and I write what I think and then I read it back and I can't help but think, Wow you
sure can give good advice, why then can't you take it. Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite because I know the answers and I can't seem to live by them.
I've had a hard week, it started off on Friday morning when I awoke to say my good mornings on the boards, this is something that I enjoy doing and what happens my darn computer wouldn't let me, so I go off with Mike to the shooting range, when I get back home I try everything and still nothing, the computer Say's you are not connected. So I called TerryCa to ask her something and to let her know. So I've been trying to get a hold of Jamie for a couple of day's, I had this feeling that something wasn't right, I mean she already had to move out of Kenny's parents, so what is going on. I did get a hold of her late Friday night and she's acting so strange, that's when she tells me that Kenny has Suzy and won't give her back, I lost it, I couldn't think, my heart just felt like it was going to brake in a million pieces. Anyway I told her to tell him that she was going to call the cops, I was so pissed at her. So to make a long story short she got her back late Friday night, but she hadn't seen her for almost 3 or 4 day's. I'm lost about this whole thing, just sick of all of it.
That child has been ripped from our home, where she was loved and taken care of, to a family who didn't even give a sh*t about her, then she's taken by her so called father who hasn't done anything for her since she's been born, using her to hurt Jamie and now she's living with one on Jamie's friends, who by the way I don't even know. What is this child learning, how is she going to grow up living the life my daughter is providing her???? She can't, she can't live like that. Also my fear's are that Jamie might be drinking and maybe doing drugs, I'm not sure about the drug's but the drinking I am, this isn't what Suzy needs, so Mike and I think we need to bring them both back. At least we can watch and take care of Suzy and if Jamie doesn't get with the program then she can leave, but Suzy is not going to go with any of her parents unless they are normal. I didn't want to do this, but I can't and I will not let her live like this anymore, we love her and need to know she's safe.
So if that means I'm going to be a Co-dependent for awhile then so be it, I want my granddaughter to have a life, I want her to feel loved and needed. I came from a family of drunks and I watched my parents beat each and yell and scream at each other, but I just can't sit by and let this little girl grow up in that kind of condition. So I'm back to right where I started, and I'm so mad at myself and at her. When will this ever go away? I thought she would understand that a child's life is so fragile, she's at that age where she needs so much attention and love, she's just not getting it with Jamie. I know Jamie loves her, but I also know that Jamie is selfish and thinks of herself more then anything, I've lived with her and I know how she is. So that's my story for today guy's call it venting or call it what it is, concern for the welfare of my little Suzy. Love Bobbie
I've had a hard week, it started off on Friday morning when I awoke to say my good mornings on the boards, this is something that I enjoy doing and what happens my darn computer wouldn't let me, so I go off with Mike to the shooting range, when I get back home I try everything and still nothing, the computer Say's you are not connected. So I called TerryCa to ask her something and to let her know. So I've been trying to get a hold of Jamie for a couple of day's, I had this feeling that something wasn't right, I mean she already had to move out of Kenny's parents, so what is going on. I did get a hold of her late Friday night and she's acting so strange, that's when she tells me that Kenny has Suzy and won't give her back, I lost it, I couldn't think, my heart just felt like it was going to brake in a million pieces. Anyway I told her to tell him that she was going to call the cops, I was so pissed at her. So to make a long story short she got her back late Friday night, but she hadn't seen her for almost 3 or 4 day's. I'm lost about this whole thing, just sick of all of it.
That child has been ripped from our home, where she was loved and taken care of, to a family who didn't even give a sh*t about her, then she's taken by her so called father who hasn't done anything for her since she's been born, using her to hurt Jamie and now she's living with one on Jamie's friends, who by the way I don't even know. What is this child learning, how is she going to grow up living the life my daughter is providing her???? She can't, she can't live like that. Also my fear's are that Jamie might be drinking and maybe doing drugs, I'm not sure about the drug's but the drinking I am, this isn't what Suzy needs, so Mike and I think we need to bring them both back. At least we can watch and take care of Suzy and if Jamie doesn't get with the program then she can leave, but Suzy is not going to go with any of her parents unless they are normal. I didn't want to do this, but I can't and I will not let her live like this anymore, we love her and need to know she's safe.
So if that means I'm going to be a Co-dependent for awhile then so be it, I want my granddaughter to have a life, I want her to feel loved and needed. I came from a family of drunks and I watched my parents beat each and yell and scream at each other, but I just can't sit by and let this little girl grow up in that kind of condition. So I'm back to right where I started, and I'm so mad at myself and at her. When will this ever go away? I thought she would understand that a child's life is so fragile, she's at that age where she needs so much attention and love, she's just not getting it with Jamie. I know Jamie loves her, but I also know that Jamie is selfish and thinks of herself more then anything, I've lived with her and I know how she is. So that's my story for today guy's call it venting or call it what it is, concern for the welfare of my little Suzy. Love Bobbie
