One day i was in the shower and my nose started bleeding. Obviously this was from snorting. I was on day 3 with no sleep, it was thanksgiving weekend. When I met up with my gf later that night she had more. I told her about nose bleed and that i probably shouldnt do anymore, even though i really wantes to.
Thats when I made the biggest mistake of my life. She went to her room and came back and said "have you ever shot it"? She went to a needle exchange location and had access to plenty of needles.
I had no idea how much more intense the high was iv'ing. It was like I was on a different drug. The pleasure was something i cant explain.
A month goes by and me and oh girl werent talking anymore, which was a good thing since she was my connect for needles. Im back my parents house one day helping mom with groceries. My dad, who is diabetic, was there and it was time for him to check his blood. I look over and he pulls out the same needle i was getting from the girl. And he has about 80 of them.
As embarrassed as i am to admit this, yes i started stealing 1 or 2 every couple days. This all took place in late December. From mid January until March 6th 2017 I was pretty much a daily user. Ive had addiction issues in the past, pills and alchohol but ive never done a drug that caused me to go downhill so quickly.
Ive been clean for 5 days now which isnt long but its a start. I was hoping someone or ones could answer a few ?s and maybe offer up some hope.
My health is the biggest concern but im very concerned about the effects it had on my apoearence. Im 36 yrs old but most people think im younger. Late 20s is what i get told most of the time. Ive always taken care of my self. I would go to the gym, drink 3 litets of water a day, eat healthy.
PLEASE dont take what im about to say the wrong way. Im not trying to sound cocky or arragant but women have always been attracted to me. Ive never had a problem getting dates. Many times I have been at work, mall ect and and noticed women of all ages checking me out.
Needless to say that hasnt happened recently. That leads to my first question.
1. Will i be able to get my smooth healthy skin back? Ive started taking omega 3s, vitamins and om dronking a ton of water again. in hopes of becoming healthy again.
2. Another HUGE problem has been hair loss. Yes meth does cause hair loss, ive gotten on other sites and people have sworn that it doesnt and theyve called me crazy.
From the research ive discovered why it had that effect on me. Meth is very toxic and as soon as you ingest it the body imnediatley trys to get rid of it. one way is through the hair folic. When i say its cause hair loss i dont mean one night i looked in the mirror and noticed i mean i literally took a shot looked in the mirror and had this nasty oil coming out of my head. I know people will call me crazy but i literally looked in the mirror and watched my hair vanish.
3. Acne: I have these huge welps on my back and i have 3 spots on my face filled with thick nasty oil. Is there a way to clear this up.
Thank you for reading. Ive done a ton of research the last few days on meth and I read nothing but horror stories. Any advice, pointers would be appreciated. Right now im looking for hope cause i look at myself in mirror and I cant believe i allowed something to rule my life and cause so much pain.