I need advice please. I am a recovering meth addict. I recently had a relapse to where I done some meth. The meth I had I used part of it and it made me feel awful and ashamed. I wanted to confess to my boyfriend but was scared because he is a very hard person to talk to. I was leaving town for work the next morning so I put the remaining drug to where he could find it. When he confronted me about finding it his tone was not good so my first reaction was to lie about it. A few days later when I returned home it was not brought up even though the guilt inside of me was still there. He then had the drugs tested to confirm what is was and then confronted me about it again and once again I denied it until I knew he for sure knew it was meth. I admitted to him that yes it was meth and that I had used again. The first time I was caught doing meth he forgave me and I got help and told me if I was caught again I had to move out. Well here I am moved out and he is angry. I tried to tell him that I was trying to tell him the truth but he does not want to listen he is so mad that I done meth again. He will not even look at the fact that I was trying to confess before by putting the remaining meth in a place where I knew he would find it. I know I shouldn't be so scared to been honest when confronted in the first place but like I said he is so hard to talk to and I was horrified. I love him so much and want him to forgive me and look at the good side of me using and that is that I didn't consume all of it. Wouldn't you think if I didn't want him to know about it I wouldn't of put it to where he could find it. I know I handled it the wrong way of confessing but now I don't know what to do to fix it. I just want him to see that Yes I done meth again but seen that I also knew it was wrong and was crying out for help. He is so mad that all he sees is I done meth again. Now I am homeless and I want to go home.
