I am a Mom to 25 years old addict son. Son use drugs since 16. Lately, my Son told me that he actually started to drink a little bit of alcohol when he was 12 y.o. His Dad (my ex husband) committed suicide just recently. My son never had any relationships with his Dad (we immigrated to USA in 1991 when my son was 4 y.o). My son does NOT know about his Dads suicide.
Son's Dad committed suicide in his Mom's apartments. He slit his wrist in the bath tub. My ex MIL found her son dead in the bath tub.
Presently, my son's drug of choice is alcohol and crack. Son is actually use ANY kind of drugs whatever is available. He is using METH, Crack, Xanax, GHB, Extasy.... He is a "junkie".
Lives on the street money pan handling.
Until 14 years old my son was a perfect child... He played piano nicely, played tennis, swimming, skiing.... he was an amazing artist and always happy and easy going, very humorous and funny. Everyone would compliment me on how good is my son is. During his teens years he was very skinny and kids called him "scrawny boy with chicken legs". Son did not "fit in" in to any kids group ( like Jugs"the athelets or others)
Son become very negative and depressive. He wanted to color his hairs blond, paint his nails black, was demanding to buy him Rats and liked catching snakes in our subdivision. I did not let him to color his hair blond, I did not buy him any rats and I was very against any snakes. I blame myself for that a lot. I always ask myself a question" What if I would let him to express himself, may be he would NOT be a drug addict?" For all 9 years of son's addiction, I had a lot of guilt questioning myself if I was a good parent. I did not let my son go to any sleepovers since in my culture we do not support any "sleepovers". Son was very upset about it either. Son went to a private school and I was to embarresed to let him color his hair blond or nails black. But when my son was expelled from private school (only due to failling all the classes), Son started to wear all black, listening to Maralyn Manson(constantly) and was "defending" the Columbine kids-killers who killed a lot of their peers in school. This "defending" was very upsetting to me. Son was never violent or aggressive, just very NEGATIVE and DEPRESSED. At the same time Son was diagnosed with mild Scoliosis which gave him a lot of stress.
Due to being skinny, scrawny, with scoliosis and "chicken legs", Son developed severe Body dysmorphic disorder and very low self esteem. I was trying to prove to the son that he is very handsome, but he did not listened to me. Son just did not fit in with a group and was bullied. Looking back I think that Son was struggling with his sexuality. I think that he is definitely a gay but did not want to addmit it even though I always mentioned that I AM NOT against any sexual preferences or a skin color.
Anyway, due to severe depression, Son failed all classes. Eventually he received GED diploma.
During his depression son was tested and diagnosed with ADHD, OCD, severe anxiety, panic attacks, anhedonia, passive aggressive personality disorders, Hypochondria, narcissistic personality disorder ....
At 15, Son was very interested in drugs. He was doing a lot of research on drugs and "how to cook them" and I thought that it is a good topic to research for the future chemistry classes, so Son checked out a book from school about crack. The teachers asked kids to pick up a book, so they will read the book during the bus drive going to the field trip just to be occupied. My son picked a book about crack and other kids chose books about "elephants and rabbits probably" The next day, his teacher were calling me, very upset that she found out that Son was reading AND advertising this book to other students during bus drive. I was very defensive and my question to a teacher was that "since this book is available in the school library, why not to take it?"
In my family NO ONE used drugs EVER, so I did not had ANY idea that I should even think for 1 sec about some kind of drugs.
I never even knew what is crack, meth or others...I heard about cocaine though.
His addiction from very beginning spiraled down out of control very quickly. Son was 19 times arrested and was very happy to do a prostitution for a much older males with fetishes. I did all possible and impossible to fix things.
At a present time Son is living on the street. Son was asked to live or was evicted from EACH and EVERY place possible. Approximately about 21 different residences.
Son tells me that he will use drugs until his heart will stop beating. He ask me not to have any hope for him. He tells me that he is deep deep in to his addiction and there is no point of return. Son was in psychiatric hospital once where he was badly injured by a psychotic patent. So even a Psych. hospital did not teach my son a lesson.
Son seems not to have any understanding of consequences. He tells me that he does not know what he likes more "living on the
street or using drugs". Son Is looking like a walking death without any teeth, his legs are infected and were almost amputated once before.
While in jail Son is very respective, jokes and entertain his fellows inmates, always shares his commissary with his "friends inmates" and always help them with a 3 ways calls on my phone. I do not mind.... Sometimes it seems to me that the whole jail is constantly calling asking to talk with their moms or girlfriends.
Anyway, unfortunately Son is "not getting arrested" lately. He is not a GRAND THEFT AUTO type and probably hardly can even hold a spoon since He is so sickling looking.
My question is this if someone can please help.....
My son did not called me for about 8 days now. He usually would call me every other day with a funny joke or a new story from the street. Son would call me when he is high, when he is drunk, when he was crying about his dealer.... He would call me every other day. How common is that an addict who is heavily on drugs not to call for an 8 days???
What if he is hurt and in the hospital? What if he is in Psychatric hospital? Will they let me know due to HIPPA LAW?
Son was Baker acted one time and Marcman acted..... This did not help....
Do addicts dissappear for weeks at a time??? I am very worried. Before I was kind of upset and "annoyed somewhat" when he called me drunk or high... But at least I knew that he is alive.
Son's Dad committed suicide in his Mom's apartments. He slit his wrist in the bath tub. My ex MIL found her son dead in the bath tub.
Presently, my son's drug of choice is alcohol and crack. Son is actually use ANY kind of drugs whatever is available. He is using METH, Crack, Xanax, GHB, Extasy.... He is a "junkie".
Lives on the street money pan handling.
Until 14 years old my son was a perfect child... He played piano nicely, played tennis, swimming, skiing.... he was an amazing artist and always happy and easy going, very humorous and funny. Everyone would compliment me on how good is my son is. During his teens years he was very skinny and kids called him "scrawny boy with chicken legs". Son did not "fit in" in to any kids group ( like Jugs"the athelets or others)
Son become very negative and depressive. He wanted to color his hairs blond, paint his nails black, was demanding to buy him Rats and liked catching snakes in our subdivision. I did not let him to color his hair blond, I did not buy him any rats and I was very against any snakes. I blame myself for that a lot. I always ask myself a question" What if I would let him to express himself, may be he would NOT be a drug addict?" For all 9 years of son's addiction, I had a lot of guilt questioning myself if I was a good parent. I did not let my son go to any sleepovers since in my culture we do not support any "sleepovers". Son was very upset about it either. Son went to a private school and I was to embarresed to let him color his hair blond or nails black. But when my son was expelled from private school (only due to failling all the classes), Son started to wear all black, listening to Maralyn Manson(constantly) and was "defending" the Columbine kids-killers who killed a lot of their peers in school. This "defending" was very upsetting to me. Son was never violent or aggressive, just very NEGATIVE and DEPRESSED. At the same time Son was diagnosed with mild Scoliosis which gave him a lot of stress.
Due to being skinny, scrawny, with scoliosis and "chicken legs", Son developed severe Body dysmorphic disorder and very low self esteem. I was trying to prove to the son that he is very handsome, but he did not listened to me. Son just did not fit in with a group and was bullied. Looking back I think that Son was struggling with his sexuality. I think that he is definitely a gay but did not want to addmit it even though I always mentioned that I AM NOT against any sexual preferences or a skin color.
Anyway, due to severe depression, Son failed all classes. Eventually he received GED diploma.
During his depression son was tested and diagnosed with ADHD, OCD, severe anxiety, panic attacks, anhedonia, passive aggressive personality disorders, Hypochondria, narcissistic personality disorder ....
At 15, Son was very interested in drugs. He was doing a lot of research on drugs and "how to cook them" and I thought that it is a good topic to research for the future chemistry classes, so Son checked out a book from school about crack. The teachers asked kids to pick up a book, so they will read the book during the bus drive going to the field trip just to be occupied. My son picked a book about crack and other kids chose books about "elephants and rabbits probably" The next day, his teacher were calling me, very upset that she found out that Son was reading AND advertising this book to other students during bus drive. I was very defensive and my question to a teacher was that "since this book is available in the school library, why not to take it?"
In my family NO ONE used drugs EVER, so I did not had ANY idea that I should even think for 1 sec about some kind of drugs.
I never even knew what is crack, meth or others...I heard about cocaine though.
His addiction from very beginning spiraled down out of control very quickly. Son was 19 times arrested and was very happy to do a prostitution for a much older males with fetishes. I did all possible and impossible to fix things.
At a present time Son is living on the street. Son was asked to live or was evicted from EACH and EVERY place possible. Approximately about 21 different residences.
Son tells me that he will use drugs until his heart will stop beating. He ask me not to have any hope for him. He tells me that he is deep deep in to his addiction and there is no point of return. Son was in psychiatric hospital once where he was badly injured by a psychotic patent. So even a Psych. hospital did not teach my son a lesson.
Son seems not to have any understanding of consequences. He tells me that he does not know what he likes more "living on the
street or using drugs". Son Is looking like a walking death without any teeth, his legs are infected and were almost amputated once before.
While in jail Son is very respective, jokes and entertain his fellows inmates, always shares his commissary with his "friends inmates" and always help them with a 3 ways calls on my phone. I do not mind.... Sometimes it seems to me that the whole jail is constantly calling asking to talk with their moms or girlfriends.
Anyway, unfortunately Son is "not getting arrested" lately. He is not a GRAND THEFT AUTO type and probably hardly can even hold a spoon since He is so sickling looking.
My question is this if someone can please help.....
My son did not called me for about 8 days now. He usually would call me every other day with a funny joke or a new story from the street. Son would call me when he is high, when he is drunk, when he was crying about his dealer.... He would call me every other day. How common is that an addict who is heavily on drugs not to call for an 8 days???
What if he is hurt and in the hospital? What if he is in Psychatric hospital? Will they let me know due to HIPPA LAW?
Son was Baker acted one time and Marcman acted..... This did not help....
Do addicts dissappear for weeks at a time??? I am very worried. Before I was kind of upset and "annoyed somewhat" when he called me drunk or high... But at least I knew that he is alive.
