I told him to leave yesterday and he did. He wasn't high and hasn't been for a week but he is still denying using over the last 3 months which I know isn't true. I gave him several chances to be honest be he chose not to.
For some reason I feel guilty and now I have to tell our son about his dad. My mom also has used meth my whole life and finally after 32 yrs I cut contact with her. But now I feel extreme guilt wondering what the right thing to do is.
I know he used last night because I checked cell phone call log and he was on the phone all night with different numbers. He did ask if he could stay here last night but I said no. Knowing I would probably give in and not break up. He's good at manipulating me.
My question is did I do the right thing? Did I cause him to get high again? If I let him stay he wouldn't have used. I'm afraid he will start using too much and end up in jail again, he is still on parole. And now my son might have to go without his dad again. I feel so bad and I'm not sure what the righ thing is.
I don't know where to go from here. I'm afraid he will end up like my mom and use forever.I also wanted to add that we get along great when he's not using and I think that's what makes me miss him and worry so much. My mom hasn't spoken to me since I told her to stop using. Se obviously doesn't care for me either.