I cant understand why no matter how much meth makes you suffer we still use. Knowing that no happy ending ever comes to using, and even while Im high Im not happy just numb. But the really crazy thing is pain. My back is killing me I cant hardly walk been like this for a while now. All the muscles in my legs are gone. They have been very weak I feel like Im walking on sticks, I know it has alot to do with my spinal menolitus, I looked it up amd thats one of .the symptoms is musles dying. It really saddens me too because My legs were one of the best things about me. I use to always get compliments on my legs. The whole time I was clean I dont remember my back pain at all seems like it was so much better. I worked cleaning condos and it never bothered me its only when I use and I can barely walk it hurts so bad. And I dont over do it believe it or not I do take care of myself while Im using . I go to sleep every night and I eat like I should and take a shower in the am and bath at night./ Gotta go
