The only time I ever give meth a thought is when I'm here. The thought of using literally makes me sick. I can't believe it was me who went through that nightmare...it feels like it was a different person living a different life, one that I'm just barely able to recall.
Who was I? I can't believe it was me who used for six straight years, all day every day. I can't believe I functioned through all that, and now that I look back at it, I must not have functioned as well as I thought I did. How could I? I'm grateful every single minute that all I lost was my sanity. I could have lost my child, my family, my home, etc.
I can't believe I went through those years of withdrawal, PAWS, pain, depression, suicidal ideation, lethargy, rage, and finally, recovery. I can't believe that on January 19th, I'll be clean exactly the amount of time I used - six years.
I can't believe I lived through that period of my life!
I want to tell those of you still suffering that life is SO DAMNED MUCH BETTER when you live it clear-headed! I've said it before, but I wanna say it again...thank you SO MUCH to all the people here and at AM who stuck with me through the hideous times I went through.
I can't believe I feel so good!
To those still using...there IS light at the end of the tunnel, I promise!
Who was I? I can't believe it was me who used for six straight years, all day every day. I can't believe I functioned through all that, and now that I look back at it, I must not have functioned as well as I thought I did. How could I? I'm grateful every single minute that all I lost was my sanity. I could have lost my child, my family, my home, etc.
I can't believe I went through those years of withdrawal, PAWS, pain, depression, suicidal ideation, lethargy, rage, and finally, recovery. I can't believe that on January 19th, I'll be clean exactly the amount of time I used - six years.
I can't believe I lived through that period of my life!
I want to tell those of you still suffering that life is SO DAMNED MUCH BETTER when you live it clear-headed! I've said it before, but I wanna say it again...thank you SO MUCH to all the people here and at AM who stuck with me through the hideous times I went through.
I can't believe I feel so good!
To those still using...there IS light at the end of the tunnel, I promise!
