Going on the second night of worrying and not sleeping. Now I feel physically sick. The worry and not knowing, the knot in my stomach, has now made me hardly functional. Believe me, I have tried to not worry!!
My son is MIA. You know the story. Not showing up at home, not answering the phone, not calling back to my numerous voice mail messages. Is this normal behavior for him – NO. He has missed the last two family get togethers after confirming 3 times he would be there, and then just not showing, not answering his phone. He has been Meth free for about 5-6 years now – but still does other drugs.
His lack of taking care of his business is getting him in more hot water - legally. The world is turning and it ain’t look’n pretty.
I WILL:
· Make a plan for today and do things for myself. This will help keep my mind busy so I don’t think about it.
· I won’t try to remind him what he is supposed to be doing – I won’t try to save him. I will watch the cards fall as they may.
· Keep a positive frame of mind.
· Appreciate the good in my life.
· Remember to keep my thoughts and actions in “just today”. Tomorrow will present itself soon enough and I will make my choices and decisions then.
· Stop my thinking when I start trying to figure out what is happening. There is nothing I can do about it anyway, and it will unfold at some point in the future.
· Do something physical today so that my body tires and I will sleep better tonight.
· Think about what I can do to make MY WORLD better and not think about his world right now.
