"Why do I love her?
Why do people love drugs???...I am an addict, I am close to rock bottom so its all up from there."

Race,

Are you so sure it is LOVE? There is a fine line between being co-dependent and being in love (two-time loser here, so I ain't talking out my arse!) I really like Suz's descriptions and definitions of love.

Being loved does NOT include being asked to do unlawful and unscrupulous things. . .she was going to use you as a pack animal. And do you think she would have "taken the wrap" or tried to protect you if you had been caught?