I thought this whole thing would be easier - Love isn't enough now is it.... If it were there would be a lot less zombies walkin the streets.

Yes 'chrisgonz' it's the same girl. I have not let go, I know I am closer than ever, but close isn't good enough either. She did ditch treatment - 2 times now in the last 6 months. I think she was just trying to appease me, lead me down the garden path of hope.

Why do I love her?
Why do people love drugs???...I am an addict, I am close to rock bottom so its all up from there.