Wow WW, I didn't know you'd lost your man.
Mine was murdered, I so feel ya on feeling your future was spoiled.

Way to google. I don't know what I'd do anymore without the Internet... back to the physical libraries probably.

I agree, we all grieve differently and some of us have a hard time not crying.

For me, I'm seeing the 10 year mark giving me mass solice with the deaths of my loved ones.
Milestones too... like when my son would have been 18.

What's helping me lately is that most deaths took place one after another so I'm finding that a lot of opportune times for closure are happening as quickly as the timing of the deaths.... it has taken me some time to let go of what might have been and facing what's coming up.

I wish the most peace for you WW. I know how difficult losing a loved one is.
Keep working through the pain, I never thought mine would go away.

Much LOVE!!