this whole thing is ridiculous...


farth..you see...words are hard to get even when we read and re read...our interpertaions are just that...

we cant see emotion behind them...our OWN EMOTIONS are going in them...and coming out..


so any way..keep coming mk...you WILL NEVER MAKE SENSE TO ME...because you are neither me...or a loved one who has suffered from someone like me...

you just judge people like me...and for that...i dont agree...

if he annoys you..so what..


back to reality...


the reality is for me today...I am sober...I work hard...i love hard...and I feel my emotions about robby hard...because I was and will always be him...

I never seperate myself from an active addict...because I am ALWAYS one pick up away...for the rest of my life...I can either live in fear..or live in the soulution...and the solution I HAD TO FIND ON MY OWN...

and I hope robby will one day too..



I HOPE YOU STAYED SOBER ROBBY on your bday...