Oh Gate, Gate , Gate - You just don't get it do you ? I had thought we were doing so well and then you go and insult me again ... There are " parts " of this society that does not do me wrong but much of it does ... and people have no say in where their taxes go , it is the good people ( liberals ) who set up these agencies to help the less fortunate , not the ones who drive " a new truck " ! You are right , I cannot put down what is killing me or at least not for very long , I try but it is not that easy ... And my meds ARE straightened out - you do not know what I go through so don't pretend to... BPD is complex , it is more than just taking your meds and meth is even more complex , not so easy to just not pick up especially with BPD accompanying it.