Robby, it's obvious that this mind-set works for you, otherwise you wouldn't pursue it.

You must get comfort out of being able to blame the world, or else you'd stop blaming the world.

You enjoy being the victim...and that's okay because some of us did (myself included).

I hope you change your way of thinking eventually (some therapy would help immensely, I think). Life will be SO much more rewarding and generally worth living when you realize that to take responsibility for yourself is a WONDERFUL thing! It empowers you to be able to change your thinking, and thus, change your world.

I'm not just spouting words here...I promise...I had to do the same thing. It's life-affirming to declare yourself "responsible for no one but yourself."

Some day, I hope. In any case, congrats on your clean days! Every day clean counts!