For my birthday one year, a friend took me to a bridge that was over some railroad tracks ..
Just when the train was about to go under it..
And she said....
Hurry , get out of the car...
And SCREAM!!!!!!!
I was SO surprised at how GOOD it felt.....
I felt like a kid and I had just turned 50..........


I am also sorry that addiction is so fcking relentless.
And you are probably correct in your assumptions.image