No one DX'd me as an alcoholic, Eve. I didn't need someone to do that for me. That was for me to decide.

I'm sure you've read here before that I relapsed after 4 years and it wasn't on meth, but on alcohol and cocaine. That first drink definitely set me off and those two long miserable months out there convinced me beyond a shadow of a doubt I am an alcoholic.

The fact that you sometimes feel suicidal when you drink indicates a problem in my eyes, but what I think doesn't matter.

You could ask 10 people, have 8 tell you they 'think' you are an alcoholic, and it's still a moot point if you don't feel you are.

I realize you are terribly self-conscious and shy (as I was for many years), but I highly recommend attending some 12-step meetings. You're not going to 'think' yourself into wellness, dear.

My best thinking damned near killed me.