I thank all 3 of you for your replies.

Wonder Woman, you made perfect sense. The smartest choice..the only sane choice, is to go to Vegas. After reading the parts of my post that you highlighted, I think part of me (the healthy part) knew that was the right thing to do all along.

You're right about every negative feeling having a positive side. I mean, doing the right thing is sometimes the hardest thing to because it takes more work and can be more uncomfortable than taking the easier, quicker, temporary, "quick fix" road. Like most addicts, I want the results I want and I want them yesterday, but no pain, no gain. You made me see that although i'm on the negative side of the emotions, that the positive are in reach, and are right on the other side.

I'm making the arrangements to move to Vegas as I type this.

Its scary how most of us have dated the same guy....Sick people who want to take us down with them. Unsupportive, mean, manipulative sociopaths. It'll be nice to be free of this one once and for all. The plan is to stay single until i've done the work and am healthy enough to break my cycle of finding the sickest man in the room.

I definitely plan on sticking around here. From what i've read, there are some gret people here with a lot of experience. It makes me feel like i'm not the only one and that I can actually come out of this and be ok. image