Hard for anyone to say what is wrong Suzie ........ Maybe it is just that things are different .... I went through that same feeling over Christmas ,, I was in rehab so long that which kept me busy and I knew what I was doing and not this being my first full year and a Half out of rehab ... I freaked out over christmas ..... Didnt know why I cared... didnt know if i should .... I took it out on my BF .... I got into a depression too ... Work seemed meaningless and not worth it anymore .......... everything just felt awkward and I was not at ease ........ I did some soul searching to figure out it was just that things were different and I didnt know what to do ... how to behave .... or how to feel ..... But i got through and I hope you do too.