((((Suz))))

I don't know if we ever know "what it's for". Maybe that's OK. I know that you give a LOT of love, and understanding, light in the darkness of all of this, to people who don't understand what in the hell is going on with people they love a lot..... And honey, all of your creativity, that is NOT for nothing.

So, for now, just breathe, OK? The waves of depression. I'm no stranger either. Sometimes they roll on top of me. I have my doubts if I can get out. I fight them. I know that you fight and claw and doubt and wish that they would take you, and even count the days. But, sometimes, we just expect too much of ourselves......

Sure, we're strong beings. But, it's also OK to admit defeat sometimes. It's OK to sit in sadness sometimes. Don't expect that you can do everything everyday. You don't need to "know how". I don't know how either.

You know how to do plenty. I love how you kick total fanny at the stocking in that make-up aisle, and nobody can touch you at that!!

Be patient with yourself. I know it's hard. I know it's so much easier to give it to someone else. You deserve that patience and compassion too, sweetheart.