I feel the same way about my ex, that you do about your current. Once the level of trust is broken to such a degree, well.........can that really honestly ever be repaired??? I mean, come on, it will always be there in your mind, that it could happen again. Just my two cents worth. I admire you for keeping your head on straight, and doing what's right for the kids..........my number one concern as well, despite the lies and pictures she may try and make them believe, kids are smart, they know right from wrong. Good luck to you, keep strong, and the chips will fall where they may..............