forget suzette wrote:
there's not a damn thing you can do for her.
...all you can do, be a better person and father, for your three wonderful kids.


I'm sorry.

It actually helps to know that I cannot help her, sort of takes the pressure off. And you're right. Taking care of my kids is all I can do, and is the most important thing for me to do. I see that clearly. The silver lining of all of this is that it has brought me closer to my kids and made me a better father. The kids are more important to me now than ever, and they always have been pretty darn important (i.e., top of the list). My therapist said that doing this for my kids will help me help myself in the long run, make me open to the thought that I deserve better and enable me to go after that.

Thanks for all of the input. It's invaluable.

Also, I commend all of you that have been through addiction and have turned your lives around to a point where you are helping people like me - and you - cope with the difficulties and pain of these situations. It is highly admirable.