I last used Monday going into Tuesday at 2 am , stayed connected to sponsor today and met with psych doc , going to 3rd meeting now, I burnt a lot of people out in SF and now am just trying to take advantage of the people here in SD willing to help me as I have been given a another chance here, people here say they know how hard it is and they do not care what I did yesterday , just how willing I am to change TODAY . I feel awful , tired, and want to use but trying to do something different . I do not believe I can do this but maybe, just maybe there IS hope