RIP, what I mean is:

Many addicts here say that as soon as they have that first drink, they almost immediately turn to drugs.

I haven't.

I've wanted to, but to be honest, I wouldn't even know who to go to anymore, and I don't want to know. Yes, my mind does say "wrong drug, need meth!", but I have created a situation where it's almost impossible to fulfill that.

I mostly drink with friends and ONLY friends. None of my friends use the kind of drugs I want. I hate pot.

So I use the term "turning into a pumpkin" as a Cinderella reference... where at the stroke of 12 the carriage turns into a pumpkin.

And if I haven't turned into a pumpkin with the sip of a cocktail, then where do I stand?