I was ruled by addiction.Believing I didn't have a problem until it
progressed to the stage that is a proven stage of the progression of addiction.
You have to believe you have a problem to want to correct it..I sense you are
still in charge or control of using..No matter what it is..
Surrendering is being powerless and you are still showing that your not...You may
never use meth again..I don't know..You may not let alcohol progress to alcoholism.
I came to realize that I can't alter my mind with anything because I will wake up
my addictive thinking and loose the control I have over it with my Rational thinking.
Alcohol has proven to me to lower my strength against saying no to other stuff.