Me neither. Unfortunately, I was able to figure out exactly HOW MUCH I can drink to avoid a major depressive rebound.

The rebound is the killer, for sure, and it causes us to drink more. So I drink enough to get what I want out of it (which is generally an improved mood and I become really motivated when I drink) without becoming debilitated with depression for the next 3 days.

So that puts me at a "moderate drinker".

I really go nuts after about 2 months of sobriety, and always end up breaking it.


It's harder to feel like you need to clean up a "low grade" drinking issue than it is to be forced to clean up after a catastrophe.

But I know enough to avoid catastrophe.


I found that "sweet spot", and it's a small and lonely place.