Is there a such thing as a partial surrender?

To me, it depends on what aspect your talking about. I am on a journey...in recovery...in life. I can only surrender things I am aware of that I need to surrender (so i guess i am always learning to surrender). Life slowly reveals to me things that I need to let go of. However, if I am already aware, and I don't surrender. Then, for me, I find I usually am justifying not surrendering somehow. I find reasons to hang on to it, which is not partial anything...it's just not wanting to let go or change in that area.

If it ain't broke, do I still fix it?

I find there is always room for improvement. You skate, correct? I used to ice skate. My skates were good skates. They weren't technically broken. However, I bought new skates because they came out with improved blades. It really helped my edges, which bettered my skating...

Has anyone been in these shoes before?

I was never addicted to drugs, but I was addicted to a meth addict. So, we have worn different shoes. We all still have yucky blisters from our choices though. Anyway, I have lived with clinical depression my whole life. I too feel my life could have been completely different had it been treated. It wasn't though until just a few years ago.

Anyway, I really find alot of parallels w/ addiction and depression. At a meeting one night, the topic was depression. For the first time, I was the "addict" not the loved one. My problems were effecting people. I had never thought about it until that night. I have to work my program and take meds when the doctor feels it necessary. Depression is miserable...like addiction...or living with addiction. But, I know there are ways to overcome it.

I choose life today...I found a way...and I'm taking it full force...mistakes and all...I am on a road that I never want to get off of or turn back from. Happiness and life feels way too good!

Throwing in my two cents,
Randi