Amy,
IMO you're greiving...& maybe you're falling back together rather than falling apart.
You're *Feeling* and *Healing*, and of course it hurts...but not nearly as much as not feeling.
As we know, any feelings we stuff only come back to bite us in the azz....as demonstrated by our histories of stuffing and medicating our emotions.

Death is an integral part of this miracle we call life, with no death there can be no birth.

IMO you're still "there" for Rob.......celebrate his life and all the good things that you cherished about him.

And for goodness sake show Amy some compassion and self nurturing and there won't be any time to think about poisoning her with alcohol...
and whatever comes after it.

Thanks again for sharing your grateful-ness..it IS infectious! image

this really hit home with me....
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