I think that the disease won again because you let it. You live off the drama. I for one am through with your bull. I think most of it is lies.
Go ahead and die, thats what you aparently want. This is a real problem and affects more lives than yours. Something isn't write about you, I have felt it from begining. You lie, and if you are a addict, you don't deserve help now. Frankly I no longer belive a word you say.