Thanks SFJ and Hemet -

To clarify , I do not come here to spread drama or to lie , like SFJ stated , I have NOT once lied to anyone on this board nor to anyone I have met in the rooms , I have lied to myself though , telling myself I am willing to go to any lengths and then my actions is something else - I have lots of problems , meth is one of them but by far not the only one , I speak of my Meth addiction on this board but am on many more sites for my other issues , it helps me to come here , now should I be ridiculed or made fun of just because I come for support , whether I am in my active addiction or not - I am seeking the solution in any way I know how - should I be put down for trying just because it is not the way that Niner , Jamie, or the countless others with " great " advice would do things ? Would you people treat your family this way if they were hurting .... I left treatment yeah , you know why I did .. not because I want to play games but because I AM SCARED . I am scared of change , I am scared of what will happen if I change and deep down I feel I am NOTHING but a lousy addict and nobody would miss me so why try to be OK ... You people ( some here not all by any means ) have been having fun posting your photos and smart remarks for months , if I died then you would not care . I am an addict just like any of you, I just have not found my solution yet .... and Jamie with all due respect , you do not live my life so who are you to say I did not try hard enough , I tried as hard as I know how to ...


I know SFJ and he is a good , decent man who tells it like it is and cares and Hemet seems like she does as well .. decent people feel no need to kick people when they are down ...at a meeting Niner and her pals tactics would NEVER be tolerated - damn hypocrites