Oh Susan, I can understand where you are coming from in every sense.

Good for you for setting some simple goals-I did that a lot early on in learning how to be a single parent. Lots of times I cut it down to things I would do for the next hour or so, or even the next 15 minutes.

My father never beat me but is very rigid and demanding, and so much of what you describe in your dysfunctional relationships with men is exactly what I did too. I was always seeking that approval that I never got at home because I was never good enough in my mind as I was growing up.

((((((hugs))))))