6 rehabs. They are not going to teach you anything you haven't already been taught....6 times.

You've already got the tools.

I can't think of one single recovering addict that I know personally who didn't have self-hatred at their core.

I can't think of one single recovering addict that I know personally who didn't self-medicate underlying mental issues.

I can't think of one single recovering addict that I know personally who didn't get clean and stay clean once they decided they wanted recovery more than they wanted to get loaded.