Robby - I am sorry you reacted to their laughter with rage.
Maybe they laughed because they too actually sat where you are sitting and they know how simple it is to live differently but when they were stuck in their misery they were as blind as you are now.

You can have a pissing war about how awful your life has been but the truth is their are people with MUCH worse histories than you right on this board who have dual diagnosis and have had beyond belief nightmares for a childhood and ya know what they are clean and sober today and they even smile and hug and act decent to others - because they are not consumed with self pity. They actually care about what is going on in the world around them instead of the world inside of them.

Robby - once you stop living in your history and reliving over and over the traumatic things you have experienced you will be able to live in today and leave all that crap behind you. It is that simple - don't go there and when you do find someting healthy to distract yourself with.

Damn even at the PJ Party or maybe it was when i visited Pen - can't remember - I was feeling kinda down at one point so I pulled out a book of pictures of my kids - why - so I could think about them instead of my own sorry butt.

Hope you make it Robby.

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