By staying clean and trying to use my history today to try and help others. Over a period of time I have changed the way I look at myself.

For the longest time I never felt I deserved self forgiveness. I think I wanted to punish myself. But when I came to believe that God and my family had forgiven me. The need for self forgiveness grew strong enough to be willing to find a way. NA among other things has helped me find my way.

I wish you the best with this.