shame and guilt: one of my biggest relapse and triggers.

You know IMHO you cant just run and make ammends. What I learned in NA was,work on myself first and understand why I simply did the things I did and the steps help me with that...when the time came for ammends, I felt solid enough that I would not be making "empty promises" or resort back to all the shyt that came with my disease...

I feel good somedays and can feel guilty as heck other days...just part of me.

When I see my son now, with his anger and lack of respect for me...all due to my meth use, it is a slap in my face of guilt and shame...It hurts, but today I am able to face it...it was WHO I use to be, not who I am today.

welcome