What helps YOU is by far the most important thing of all!

Good job and I'm really glad to hear that you're going back to your treatment provider for help.


Something I noticed about your "pros and cons" list....most of your cons are about feelings and most of your pros are about actions.

It sure does show us in black and white, that changing how we feel, is by far the biggest reason why we use.

We can package it, rationalize it, explain it anyway we want, but at the end of the day, as people who are addicted, we struggle with our feelings and turn to drugs to feel better.

For most of us, it's pain that we want to escape from...

Someone I know once said that recovery is about learning how to "embrace our suffering"....there's a lot to that statement that goes much deeper than what it seems to only say on the surface.