Your therapist cannot report your drug use to the courts unless you have signed something called a "Release of Information (ROI)" that specifically specifies what she can tell them and for what period.

If you are in the United States you have a lot of protection regarding confidentiality like HIPPA. Federal laws even go further when it comes to addiction, you can google CFR 42 to see what I'm reffering to.

Employees that get into trouble with drugs and alcohol in the workplace are often required, in order to keep their job, an ROI to show that they are in compliance with a treatment plan.

Something else...I don't see how she could report "suspected" drug use anyway. The only thing she could furnish would be UA testing results and if you are not court ordered to be there in the first place than you probably don't have anything to worry about.

If it were me though, I would be honest with my therapist regarding my sobriety....This person is there to help you and I assume you're paying good money for it too.

Being humble enough to admit our failings to people who deserve to be in our loop, is an important part of the recovery process in my humble opinion.

Keep moving forward and like someone else said, don't beat yourself up....It's where we're going that matters the most, not where we have been.

I hear you on the accountalbility thing too....It helped me a lot having to be able to pass UA's.