Thanks Ma. I hear you!

You are so right. My mom can cook up some crazy ideas in her head. They make her worry so much. I feel so bad for her. She has 4 kids total and 3 of us are addicts. We've put her through hell and back. When I do sit down with her I want to have my action plan. Hopefully knowing that I have one will ease her mind a bit.

Eve- Thank you for you feedback. I do need accountability. It's what helped me stay clean for those 15 months. I had told all my good friends what I had been up to. Opening up to them helped. I do see a therapist. My next visit isn't until the 31st. I went this week, but hid it from her. Well tried. I'm sure she's going to tell me she knew I was high. I'm a bit hesitant to tell her. I'm on probation and not sure if she has to report it or if that is confidential.