Thank you so much for the warm welcome! Yes, the "one more time" thing has always been another set up to fail. The seductive powers of a mere pipe are powerful, to say the least. Maybe it's fortunate that's the only method I ever came to know, as I hear for some reason it's a bit easier to recover from for some people. As far as withdrawals, I've been reading some more on this site and ran across the thread that mentions B-vitamins and L-Thyrosine. Will run out to the store tomorrow and start on that ASAP before things get ugly. Depression unfortunately has always been an issue for me. I take a daily antidepressant, so hopefully that won't backfire for some neurological reason I'm not aware of when I'm a few days into the clean life. My primary concern is my behavior at work. It's a very chaotic work environment with endless interruptions while trying to focus and non-stop pressure. It's also an environment where by no means am I going to be able to snap at people or express any real anger.

I should mention that while I'm afraid of the weeks to come, I'm also excited to return to a life of cleanliness where I won't have to be looking over my shoulder all the time and dreading the possibility of a drug test, deteriorating health, appearance, relationships, and being able to enjoy all the good stuff sober folks get to enjoy.

Yes, I love the classic horrors! The Karloff/Lugosi stuff from waaaaay back there. Today's stuff, not so much. Most of it gets way too gross and there's no real story to it. Just gore. Speaking of which, how do I get rid of the .monsterkidsclassics that keeps showing up by my nickname? Tried going under profile settings and setting display name as MisterWrong only, but it won't drop the .monsterkids tag. Any ideas?

Thank you again for the warm welcome, and I'll be checking back in to let everyone know how I'm coming along. Praying you're right and the good-bye symptoms won't be that bad. I have to remember to try my hardest to go into it with a positive attitude and be thankful that I caught it this early before I lost everything and everyone I love by playing with this evil drug. Time for some rest. Hope you have a great night.