First off, I apologize for my absence. Ive been going through some @@!!. I have good, bad and worse news. So lets start with the worse news: Im being chaptered out of the Army. Many of you may remember the incident with the Air Force Academy prescribing the wrong medication to my son. I was placed on a Bar to Re-enlist for that. Monday the 3rd, i came on post forgetting my 45 (which is not registered with post) was in the back. Random inspection and they find and Im arrested. Theres the Pattern of Misconduct to kick me out on.
Now the bad news: the night of the 1st going into the 2nd I relapsed. 32 days clean. I had an appointment the friday previous for medication to help with the nightmares and cravings. A snow storm cancelled that along with my MRI.
Now the good news: Knowing that I was getting kicked out already, I came clean to my commander. Im now enrolled in ASAP (Army Substance Abuse Program) and getting the real treatment I need. In a week and a half we will re-visit an option of my going to inpatient rehab. Ive already told them that I want to.
Im finally glad to be free of the lie. Its a huge weight off my shoulders. Now that the cat is out of the bag, if youre wondering, Im a member of Special Forces. That shoulder answer a lot of questions about the violent ideations. While my future is uncertain, one thing is, I will survive and I will succeed.