Congratulations on 2 weeks clean! I have NO doubt that you will make it this time, if you stay on the road you are on. You did everything right yesterday. You texted your wife for support, and she was there for you. Just keep your focus on the wonderful family you have. Nobody said this was going to be easy. You will have your good days, and your bad days. Yesterday happened to be one of those not so good days. Its okay to cry. Let those feelings out, as holding them in will only make staying clean more difficult.

Soon you will start to get back some REAL emotions. I found them to be overwhelming, as I had NO idea what was happening to me. Meth deadens our natural feelings and emotions. At some point, you will start feeling something unusual, something you haven't felt since you started using, those are your natural feelings and emotions coming back. Mine came flooding back over the course of about a month. Instinct told me I was feeling something, but I didn't know what.

If you want to cry, do so and let it all out. Then start making a effort to try to figure out what you are feeling. It is usually a combination of many feelings put together. I would go through a long list. Am I happy, sad, anxious, mad, lonely, depressed, giddy, stressed, etc. and I would try to put a word to what I was feeling. By the end of that month my feelings and emotions went from a dozen, to over a hundred. Once you understand what you are feeling, you can learn how to better control those feelings and emotions. I am so happy for you! I wish I could give you a great big hug because you really deserve one. Keep up the good work! Wishing you and your family well. Carol