Thanks everyone. Lady, thanks for the advice on the locations. Tonight i doubt ill make it however tomorrow im sure i can. Ill shoot you a text tonight. I'll admit, it was kind of awkward running into you last night but comforting to know that people like me (or at least really close to friends who happen to be co-workers) of mine make the same mistakes and can look at me without judgment. I have no illusions of life magically getting better. Lets face it, i had to put in effort to get my life as +%@%*+ up as it was! As Im sure we all know, screwing things up is easy, fixing them is a *##%@! But you know me and how strong willed i can be, for good or bad things. My will is going fullbore in a positive direction. I just got done at the gym. Still gotta eat and take care of the kiddos.
Carol, thanks for the kind words. If one day i can an inspiration to someone thats an added bonus. Im just taking each day and trying to stay clean for me. Just for today. You have helped more than you know.
Lax yes you should. While Im new to recovery and NA and CMA, i do take lessons and strength from the meetings. Even though i dont know anyone (except ladylore) at them, i stiil feel a strange sense of responsibilty and accountabilty to them. Probably moreso than ever given that attendance was my decision and continued attendance is my choice. Unlike 16-17 years ago when my parole officer made me go. Oh how I wish Id listened then!
Oh yea, lady, welcome! You found my secret hang out! Haha.